I Survived the ICU After My Daughter's Mermaid Birth

Red Pill Shaman

Host Keri Blazer shares her personal journey of surviving bacterial sepsis and navigating the 'primal wounds' experienced by her daughters,

Key takeaways

• A 'mermaid birth,' occurring in 1 in 80,000 deliveries, is viewed as a sign of divine protection and intuitive insight.
• Primal wounds are foundational psychological injuries that bypass the rational brain to be written into the nervous system and cellular memory.

Main topics

• Mermaid Birth phenomena
• Primal wounds and psychological healing

Notable quotes

Changing the world is an inside job.

Conclusion

The episode provides a framework for viewing life's traumas as opportu

Transcript preview

Speaker 1 (0:00) I was five weeks postpartum, intubated in ICU with bacterial sepsis, right after my daughter was born, inside of her amniotic sac, called a mermaid birth. That is a rare 1 in 80,000 vaginal birth, signifying divine protection, destiny, and intuitive insight. Welcome to Red Pill Shaman, where we are shattering the matrix from the inside out. This is where we strip away societal programming to examine history, ancient prophecy, and ourselves through the dual lens of quantum physics and analytical psychology. Why do I take this approach? Because... Einstein taught us that the field is the sole governing agency of the particle, and Carl Jung proved that changing the world is an inside job. Today we start by connecting the Woman of Valor poem from the Old Testament to the strength, tenacity, and valor of modern women exemplified by my two daughters. a woman of valor who can find her worth is far beyond rubies nothing you desire can compare with her she rises while it is yet night provides food for her household she considers a field and buys it with the fruit of her hands she plants a vineyard she girds her loins with strength but makes strong her arms she perceives that her merchandise is profitable but her lamp does not go out at night. She puts her hands to the distaff, and her hands hold the spindle. When it snows, she has no fear for her household, for all of them are clothed in scarlet. Strength and dignity are her clothing, and she laughs at the time to come. She opens her mouth with wisdom, and the teaching of kindness is on her tongue. The Woman of Valor poem in the Old Testament showcases a wife and mother who was a leader, entrepreneur, wise woman, and a fierce protector who commands her life with absolute sovereignty and tenacity. She is a complex, accomplished woman who reminds me of both of my daughters, Gael and Orly. I chose several lines of the Woman of Valor poem that highlight my daughter's strengths and personal accomplishments. As her father is Israeli, this poem naturally aligns with her cultural and genetic DNA. Three is a number of completion. They definitely have helped me regain my healthy femininity, creating wholeness or completion within myself. So I will honor them in this episode. Modern society is at a crossroads when it comes to understanding what is healthy femininity and how to help women embody it. Feminism rejected stay-at-home mothers, choosing to embrace female masculinity instead by prioritizing women's academic, professional, and sexual accomplishments. But my feminine heart holds a different truth. I was born in 1970 and raised to be a feminist. I am 56 now. Having lived the feminist dream of career, academia, and multiple sexual partners, I didn't find wholeness or completeness on that path at all. I found mental illness, physical challenges, and failed relationships, especially the relationship with myself. My daughters helped me connect to my true feminine self, where I learned self-love, compassion, understanding, emotional nurture, and intuitive wisdom. all of which represent healthy femininity. I am no longer mentally ill. I am repairing my relationships, and my physical health has far improved. What would happen if women learned to embrace the depth of their healthy femininity instead of chasing the height of masculine purpose? Welcome to Episode 3. Speaker 1 (4:25) My oldest daughter Yael was born in December of 2000. She came three weeks early, which is quite typical of her personality. She has always seen, known, and done everything ahead of the pack in her own special way, starting with her birth. She was born in what is called a mermaid birth, where she was born inside of her amniotic sac. This phenomenon occurs in fewer than 1 in 80,000 vaginal deliveries and is universally revered across ancient and modern traditions to be a massive sign of divine protection, destiny, and intuitive insight. Spiritually, a mermaid birth signifies a soul born with the rare capability to navigate between the upper world and the deep underworld effortlessly as she was born inside of a natural protective barrier. in celtic nordic and old european folklore it was strongly believed that a child born like this possessed the natural gift of prophecy mediumship and second sight and she would need every ounce of that sealed strength immediately because at just five weeks old our family's physical world collapsed Due to financial constraints, I went back to work when she was three weeks old and her brother was two and a half years old. I placed my masculine need to provide ahead of my feminine need to nurture to the detriment of my family and myself. When she was five weeks old, I developed bacterial sepsis and was intubated in ICU for two weeks, nearly losing my life several times. When I came home, she was eight weeks old and completely bonded to my mother, for whom I'm internally grateful. Right before I had Yael, my mother retired, so she was fully available to care for my infant daughter while I was incapacitated. While my mom saved the day, my relationship with Yael held that pain for 24 years, creating immense emotional strain between the two of us. Yael developed what is called a primal wound from that event. A primal wound refers to a deep, foundational psychological injury that occurs at the absolute root of a person's development, completely shaping how they view themselves, process emotions, and interact with the world. It is called primal because it happens before the conscious mind has fully developed language, logic, or defense mechanisms. As a result, this wound bypasses the rational brain and is written directly into the soul, the nervous system, and the cellular memory of the body. Like Einstein taught, the field is the soul-governing agency of the body. So when a person's field, or soul, houses emotional pain, the nervous system and body hold it somatically as like a particle, creating a mirror for personal reflection. That is why changing the world is an inside job. Since it took us many years to learn the truths taught by both Einstein and Young, I will share how it impacted our daily lives over those 24 years. Her subconscious believed that I had died, so she lived in that cognitive dissonance for about 24 years until we healed together over time. Her subconscious held one truth, my mom died, while her conscious self saw me every day. That event drove a subconscious wedge between us. To survive the crushing weight of that primal wound, the psyche splits. creating survival mechanisms like hyperindependence, codependency, and self-sabotage, all of which were part of our daily lives until we healed recently. As I have learned through my healing from my own childhood trauma, our souls plan our lives based on our wounds for self-improvement purposes. The deeper the wound, the vaster the wisdom, because life is like jumping on a trampoline. The deeper one goes into their subconsciousness, their fear, guilt, and shame, the higher one flies into their consciousness, their love, compassion, and enlightenment. Her soul planned these traumatic events to set the stage for immense growth opportunities across her entire life. It is all by design. Gael typically expresses her trauma by worrying she is not being given enough space in the world, where her younger sister and I worry about taking up too much space in the world. That is the classic duality between narcissist and empath, where I am an empath. Both identities are out of balance, hence the attraction. Souls plan these relationships because both sides are naturally triggered by the dueling nature of one wanting all the attention and one wanting none of it. Triggers are my healing friend, not my healing foe. When I get triggered, my emotional pain rises to the surface, providing me with an opportunity to transform it into personal wisdom. Yael definitely does that for me. all the time. In the fall of 2019, Gael started her own jewelry business called Aveda Co. She started signing up for markets every weekend. That change in her life gave me a massive opportunity to show up for her with my maternal nature, proving once and for all that