NDE Stories of People Who Committed Suicide...Compilation

Near Death Experiences And Supernatural Events

This episode features a compilation of profound personal accounts from individuals who survived suicide attempts and experienced near-death e

Key takeaways

• Speaker 2 experienced a separation of spirit and body that allowed her to perceive the world through others' perspectives, leading to profound empathy.
• Chris Batts (Speaker 5) shared a message from God emphasizing that all people are loved equally, regardless of their life path.

Main topics

• Near-Death Experiences
• Spiritual Enlightenment

Notable quotes

Don't waste your life thinking you're not loved.

Conclusion

The episode serves as a powerful testament to human resilience and the

Transcript preview

Speaker 2 (0:00) I had what you might call a traumatic childhood. My mother left us when I was nine, left us with our alcoholic father. He was ill-equipped to take care of two little girls. I was the older of the two of us. And my mom joined a cult. Like, no kidding, bonafide cult. And I was visiting her over Thanksgiving one year, and there was a little boy. that they were starving. Now, mind you, this place was deep in the recesses of Bryce Canyon, a five mile hike in, okay, into the mountains of Utah. There was no power. Everyone lived in teepees. And this little boy was my age. He was nine. His name is Petey. I've actually since like been communicating with him because I had to know if he turned out. And they had him in a teepee across the river from everybody else. He was allowed bread and water once a day in his underwear, and that was it. And they did systematically shave heads, take shoes to keep kids from running away. Now, there were a lot of adults there, too, but there were a lot of children. So Petey was starving, clearly. They rang the dinner bell, and Petey begged us for food. Well, all of the resident children knew better. Speaker 2 (1:15) you know, hightailed it out of there, went to go have their dinner. And I told him, meet me at the cook shack when it gets dark and I will bring out a plate of food. Well, they had turkey and all this stuff. So I piled this big, huge plate of food out up for him. And I met him under the cook shack and one of the other kids ratted me out and they called me to the hot seat that next day where this was run by a psychologist who's since done time and lost his license, obviously, but. Anyway, he said, Angie broke one of our rules. We're not going to feed her. Looked at my mother for her approval. And I thought, are you kidding me? This is not going to fly. And I look at my mother and she's so gone. She was just, I could just see the humiliation and devastation, both the shame on her face. And she agreed to it. So like, not such a big deal for me. Like, I think I wouldn't without two meals or something. But the moment itself was the impetus. Like, I can trace everything back to that moment. It was at that point that I decided my mother doesn't love me. I'm unwanted. Speaker 2 (2:26) basically like I was a mistake. That was my experience with myself, mistake. And then things went from frying pan to the fire when I got married very young, 19 years old. And the marriage was abusive. You didn't talk about this kind of thing back then. A lot of gaslighting going on. So I was like surrounded in this new world that I felt like I'd created when I was like hoping to get out of. the circumstances I was in, that was actually worse. And I had two little boys. And then what finally happened for me was just kind of the split in who I wanted to be, who I believed I was, and then my behavior. And they did not match. And so it wasn't just depression, you know, that I was dealing with, and anxiety, which I was dealing with, like, very profoundly at the time. But it was also... that I had no say so in my actions. So just leading up to the suicide attempt, I would do this thing every six months, okay? And this was very typical of the kind of thing I do. I lived on the island of Okinawa in Japan. Like, really, you can drive any direction an hour and a half and you're going to hit water. It's really hard to get lost on that island, right? And I have no idea. what my thought process were that led me to this, but I went out to get a gallon of milk and I didn't come back for like two or three days. I just didn't come back. I slept in my car, went to the beach, went to the store, got food, went and saw Flatliners, the movie, the original Flatliners, and finally went home. And then my children and my husband were on the ground on their knees praying. that I'd be safe. And here I was, had disappeared. And I think it was two days actually. So, and I didn't say a word, really. My husband was afraid to ask me, where have you been? What have you been up to? And the next morning is when it kind of hit me. My oldest boy, who was about five, was so angry, just so angry. And then my two-year-old wouldn't let me touch him. So I just had the experience. I can't keep putting my children through this. I don't understand what's happening to me. I have no control over it. And mind you, I had gotten help. I had seen counselors and nobody had any answers for me. And that was it. It was that. Speaker 2 (5:07) My children were better without without my children were better off without me. So that's what I did and I waited till the next night when everyone was asleep and The first thing I did is I slipped my wrists with a Broken apart safety razor, which was really ineffective I didn't know how anybody did that but I did leave pretty deep scars on my wrist but then I started taking everything in the medicine cabinet and I took it at first a whole bunch of stuff you know, and of course it came up. And so then I sipped and swallowed through the night so that I could hold it down. And then in the morning at about 10 a.m., 11 a.m., I sent my boys off to a neighbor with a note just that I'm not feeling good. And then I could feel it happening. Speaker 2 (6:00) It was this profound, extremely loud, like vibrating kind of inescapable energy, like this rattle, like an earthquake or like an airplane is coming down into the living room like that. And I could feel it in my body. By this time I'm laying down on the couch. And I also have a knowing of what's going on. Wow, it's happening. Speaker 2 (6:29) I'm laying on the couch. At first I thought it was a jet coming down and I peeked out my window and it was clearly happening inside of my body. And I knew like, this is it. Well, I'd had a stepmother who had had a near-death experience and she'd gone to the corner of the Speaker 3 (6:44) room. Speaker 2 (6:44) So that's what I expected. So I wanted to watch because that's the state of mind I was in. I was not well. I wasn't healthy. dark it was dark time for my life and i wanted to watch and see this happen so i opened my eyes and as soon as i did i could feel my body just like back into my body i could feel my spirit and my body reconnect so i closed my eyes again and then i could feel this energy i could feel it separating i knew i was out of my body opened my eyes to watch back in my body so i did that a couple of times and then finally it was just like okay opening my eyes that is disrupting this process and closing my eyes So I pressed my eyes closed and suddenly I was swallowed up in the experience. I had the experience of being like this and being squeezed and being pushed. And what I'm seeing is this yellow membrane with these red like capillaries running through it. And I'm experiencing emotionally this euphoria at the same time. And then I'm pushed through this tunnel. And it wasn't until later I realized that was my birth because then the next thing I see is my mother cradling me. And I look so much like her. I was confused and thought that I was looking at myself at first. But then I realized I'm feeling everything. I can experience everybody's points of view. And my mother was 18 when she had me. And that was when I got, wow, she loved me. She wanted me. And that euphoria that I was experiencing, that was in the birth canal. That was my own. I want to be here, like my choice to live. But it was also hers, her desire to have me. So that was just a complete surprise to me, the first of many. And so then I went through my life beginning to end. Every moment of my life, parts of it were. Just rushed through, not important, but parts of it were slowed down so that I could experience. And the point of it was experience how everybody else around me experienced. So out of that, it's like exoneration and patience and love and forgiveness for my father, for Speaker 4 (8:58) my Speaker 2 (8:58) mother. And then also getting how my actions impacted others. That was the big one, right? I mean, at the time, I really, truly hated my husband. Speaker 6 (9:11) You Speaker 2 (9:11) know, it was abusive. But suddenly I'm seeing through his point of view. I'm getting, wow, he just got what I got. He got a set of circumstances. He got a set of parents. He got his DNA. And then he got all of his experience that led up to how he was the way he was. And I had contributed somewhat to that. So I was able to see completely. I kept it to myself for a long time until I felt called actually to share it. to support people who are dealing with life. I mean, the big message I got was, wow, this is just a second, really, in the grand scheme, it's just a moment. And that even those who are experiencing the worst of the worst that our planet has to offer people, it comes to an end and it's like it was a dream. And there's complete healing and complete exoneration. And everybody that ever harmed anybody. gets to see it from their point of view. And there's a, you know, like a, I don't know, a redemption, if you will, where we all see from each other's perspectives. And when you see from somebody else's point of view, there is nothing but forgiveness, gratitude, love. That's all that's there. My Speaker 5 (10:28) name is Chris Batts. I am a near-death experiencer by way of a suicide attempt. Speaker 5 (10:38) Before I get into my near-death experience, I sort of want to break down why I had a near-death experience. So, I was very suicidal at the time. I had a lot of thoughts of leaving Earth way back when, since I was like four years old. Speaker 5 (10:59) I do know, because I don't have much of a relationship with my mom or dad. I don't know where they are. I don't even know who they are. You know what I mean? I've seen my mom very few times. My dad left her when she was pregnant. I've never seen, well, from what I hear from my grandma when I was a little kid, she told me my dad had. I guess took me around a couple times when I was a baby to get ice cream but of course I don't remember that maybe I was a couple months old if that that's the only um interaction I've ever had with my dad so I don't know what he looks like um and I grew up in home to home actually going home to home um what ended up happening was my mother at six months old threw me in a dumpster you know those neighborhood dumpsters she threw me in one of those because i guess she wanted to get on with her life i was a burden to her um One of the times when I was five years old when I actually did see her she told me The reason why she threw me in a dumpster was because I didn't want she didn't want me and her words literally were I didn't want you at the time So I mean that's what she said now. I think about it. I kind of laugh about it I guess it's nothing to laugh about but shoot I'm happy, you know Yeah, so the lady fell me and she called my grandma I guess my grandma was at church so Speaker 7 (12:27) the lady called my grandma says oh Speaker 5 (12:29) my Speaker 7 (12:29) gosh I have a baby here right now. Speaker 5 (12:32) I hear your baby. This is your mom's your daughter's child like this is your grandchild in the dumpster and My grandma immediately left church and pretty much from there. She took me in So from six months up until I was four she took me in Speaker 5 (12:52) During these times she let my mom see me every so often But she wasn't supposed to see me because my grandma had custody of me and she went to court for me After my mom threw me in the dumpster and the judge told her like hey You can no longer see your son ever ever ever ever again. So that's what my grandma had custody of me um so Fast forward, you know after she's still in the hospital I end up Speaker 5 (13:22) living with her daughter. A lot of times I went to bed hungry. A lot of times they would say I don't deserve food and clothes. I lived with them all the way till I'm four years old up until I was 14. So during this time was horrible for me. And they bought, they got their son clothes and shoes and everything. He was the... The golden child, so to speak. And I was the one that had to do all of his chores and his work and still get good grades. And if you forget to vacuum or clean or wash the dishes or something because you're doing homework, you get beat. They used to beat you for everything. We went to church every single Sunday and sometimes during the week on Mondays and Wednesdays and Saturdays. And sometimes when they would have what they call a revival, you go every... Like you go every day, you know for weeks at a time and uh Yeah, and these people were so we were Baptist Christian. I need to um incorporate this in here. We were Baptist Christian and These people were very mean they were very very